I have a choice.
I can lean hard into the possibilities that this day presents and work as opportunity allows.
Or, I can sit back, take it easy, rest body and mind, put things off until another day and hope for the best.
In truth, my mind and body need recovery time. There was much emotional/mental and physical hardship that occurred while away from home. For 14 days there was a constant demand for output and little opportunity to regroup, to rest…to recover.
Sleep is what my body and mind crave. But, after sleeping 8 hours I wake exhausted. My body halts between bedroom door and hallway, uncertain whether to move forward or fall back. My mind feels like lukewarm gray mush that struggles to remember what’s said and what I intend to do next.
Hubby struggles as well. His grief compounds and accents his mental and physical fatigue.
The mind must heal and the body must recover if life is to be forward facing and energies focused on what’s next.
Forward facing with focus on what comes next is imperative. There are still hard decisions to be made and much work to be done to close out what was and open doors to the possibilities that lie ahead.
I have a choice.
I have today.
What will I make of it?
Will I listen to my body and mind? They beg to shut down and rest.
No. I will take both outside into the sunlight and I will take the garden fork in hand and work the soil…breaking it up…turning it over…opening the door to possibilities….
All winter I’ve looked forward to the day when the weather would permit me to begin work on the garden I’ll have in my own backyard. Cardboard has covered half the yard for many months now and most of the grass beneath it has died.
Today. I will embrace it…all of it. And, I will work my body until she aches and can do no more. And, as my body works my mind can rest and take time to regroup and recover.
Today abounds in possibilities and opportunities.
What will you make of it?